The military life..........

......has a way of sneaking up on you and slapping you in the face!!! Terry got orders overseas for a year, we found out a about 12 days ago and I have been on an emotional roller-coaster ever since. Not sure what else to say right now, I am just a mess and I hope the next 17 months fly by really fast!! I just wanted to update the family the reads this!

The last 2 years of my life...............

have sucked so bad!!! I am so tired of starving myself and working my ass off and seeing no results and now I have been informed that this may just have to be the way I live for the rest of my life!! 900-1200 calorie a day diet, burning as many calories through running, yoga and daily life as possible just so I don't GAIN any more weight and that I may just never loose this weight!! I can't tell you how that makes me feel.....I feel so hopeless!! If a normal person worked as hard as I have for the last 8 years of my life (particularly the last 2years) they would be a damn stick!! Now, let me say that I do not want to be a stick but I do want to loose 30lbs and feel good about myself. I grew up in a family that made it well known that being overweight was just disgusting and that no person should look like that and I know that that is one of my biggest problems, I just find myself absolutely repulsive!!!! I find myself just so disgusted when I look in the mirror anymore....I hate this so much!!!! It has become very hard to deal with esp. since finding at that I have Hashimoto's disease on top of the Hypothyroidism ( it complicates it so much more). I am sick of my hair falling out and clogging my shower every damn day, so tired of being tired, hate the mood swings, hate being the freak in the room because I am freezing and shivering while everyone else is hot, pimples at the age of 27 and most importantly just knowing that this will be the way I have to live forever!!!

Just need to vent I guess......it's been harder to deal with lately.

WOW!!

I am not good and keeping up with this and I am sorry! The kids are now on Summer break (thank God)! Cat did well and is heading into the 3rd grade. Nathan will repeat the 1st grade (smart guy just struggles with concentration). Anthony, well I am going to say that Anthony is just now entering Kindergarten even though he attended last year. After a very shocking/horrifying experience he had towards the beginning of the school year he completely shut down and wanted nothing to do with school for MONTHS!! He started to enjoy it again the last couple of months but the damage has been done we have decided that we would like him to repeat just to give him a sense of security at school and some time to mature.

I once again have put school on hold (managed to make great grades but at the expense of my family...which I am not going to allow it to happen again.) for now. I will return when Nicolas is in the 1st grade. I am very upset about this ( I hate having to put it off....I truly enjoy school) but the kids and hubby come first.

Terry is good....work is the same ( boring lol). He put in for a special duty back to Ut a month ago so we are waiting to hear about that. If we don't get it I fear that we will be stuck here for years!!! I am not one to just sit in one place for too long, we have been here longer then any of our previous bases and I am going bananas!!

Christmas Vacation ECT....

Well the kids go back to school on the 4th and I have to say it is bitter sweet. I don't really want it to end. We had a nice Christmas done our way ( i.e tree and decorations came down right away, had our none traditional dinner). Couldn't wait for it to come and now that it's over I am demanding that mother nature bring back the desert heat I am so accustomed to now :) I am done with the cold.

Spring Semester starts in a couple of weeks...looking forward to it but even more so I am looking forward to Summer Vacation ( 4 months without school work will be so nice).
We plan getting to the beach a lot more this Summer, going on a few camping trips and so much more so I am hoping the next 4 months fly by.

Sorry that I don't have any new pictures to post our camera broke again so we will be replacing in next month....I will post new pictures as soon as I have some.

Catherine is doing well she and I are kept busy with school, life and Girl Scouts ( I am one of the leaders in the troop) which has consumed much of our free time don't think we will be doing Girl Scouts next school year.

Nathan is a sweet as ever not much new to report about him.

Anthony had a pretty traumatic experience at school involving a disturbed child so school has been a struggle ever since.....he is afraid to go back so it's been tough.

Nicolas is well.....still the baby haha he is getting huge, he is going to be a big guy he weighs as much as his Anthony ( hes no fat just built like a football player) and he has a cocky attitude to boot *smile*

As for Terry and I we are about to hit our 10 year mark...time sure has gone by fast. We are both very busy with school, kids, work, promotion exam ect.

Hoping the New Year brings nothing but wonderful things for our family and yours!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Summer 2009

Well, this Summer has come to an end. The 3 older kids will be back in school Monday morning and it'll just be Nicolas and Mommy. Which I am sure Nicolas will love :)
I am very happy to see this horrible Summer end. While most were out having fun and playing the kids on Edwards AFB were mainly stuck indoors due to horribly heat we have been having for the past couple of months. There hasn't been a day that's been under 103 degrees, combine that with the dry air and the fact that we live on a dry lake bed that reflects the sun....it's been just nasty.

My Summer has been filled with stress, stress and more stress. Stress with getting my school paperwork taken care of ( mainly the financial aid department....there is one very incompetent person working in there that really drove me nutts for a while) Stress with my mother which out of respect for my family I have not gotten into with anyone but I will say that I haven't spoken to her in months ( that's a lie I did speak to her once to find out what was going one with my Grandfather) but other then that I haven't spoken to her since April. It's been very hard not speaking to my own mother but I know it is the best thing for my family. But as always I do wish her all the best. Okay enough of that.

Back to the family! Terry is doing well, this month he has been the military escort for a millionaire ( and his British team....who my husband and the other military escort taunt all day long over cultural difference...it's all in good fun as they all agree) They have spent the last 10 years building a steam powered race car ( as my husband says "this thing looks like it could go over 400 mph" but it can't read on lol) anyway they have traveled all the way to America to break a steam car top speed that was set in 1905 or around there sometime not sure exactly when) They are using the lake bed here on base because it is one of only a hand full of places in the world that is straight, flat and long enough to race this car on. Oh did I mention the record speed set over 103 years ago was 124 mph :) these guys will beat that but unbelievably not by much....the record officials will be out here all of next week so hopefully the team can pull it off while he is here....Good luck boys!! Terry has had fun working with all of them.

I am doing well just trying to get things back in order for the school year to begin. Getting ready for the holidays which are fast approaching. Oh I started belly dancing which I love love love Great workout!

The kids are great...they have spent the whole summer in water and dirt HAHA. We have gone hiking at the Devils Punch Bowl a couple of times, discovered a few small towns to explore down here ( we try to avoid the cities here if at possible) they are very quiet, small farm towns with loads of fresh fruit stands and little shops...a discovery we all plan to enjoy for the rest of our time down here. We have planned several camping trips this summer but due to the INSANE wind here we have yet to go through with any of our camping plans ( all of our camping gear is still brand new and in the packages all thanks to the WIND). The kids are all very excited about going back to school....Anthony does get nervous every once in a while but myself and his older sister and brother reassure him that school is fun and he will like it.

Here are few pics from our last hiking trip...

What a week!!

Sheesh am I glad things are getting back to normal around here. As I mentioned in my previous post Nathan has been sick. He has had horrible abdominal pain, fatigued, nausea, pale as a ghost and finally vomiting. We took him to his ped. after about 4 days of on again off again abdominal pain and not being very responsive to me ( the boy would just sit and look right through you when you would speak to him.....scared the he** out of me), anyway back to the ped. visit after a few cracks about swine flu and visiting Mexico, testing for a appendicitis problem, infection of any sort, and other things.....we got the answer we have come to expect from peds on base...he simply and honestly said " he has a case of the I don't know's". Anywho we did find out that from all this discomfort he had dehydrated himself ( which he does often) so we had to take care of that. After about 6 days he started coming around and moving about like his old self and then BOOM Anthony, Nicolas and Cat get sick, almost simultaneously, It was horrific YUCK YUCK....I have been disinfecting my house for the last 36 hours!! As of today all our babies are filling 100% better and life is back to normal.

Little school update I took the essay placement test ( the one I have been avoiding the most) the other night. ..I had a choice of two topics to write about I chose one about children and marriage....I had an hour to complete it lol for the first 35 mins I just sat at the computer staring at the screen wondering what I was going to say..finally it came to me and I was able to finish with loads of time to spare :) So hopefully I will have done well ( I wont hear anything for 2 weeks)...now I just have to go take the supervised math and english test ).

Hmmm

Well lets see, an update hmmmm!!!

I guess i'll start with me....I am in the middle of of registering for school ( just need to take my placement test...which I am to chicken to do but I am sure I will get up the nerve to do it soon lol...and I am waiting on paper work from FSA stating that I don't owe them any money ( 4 years and they still haven't updated there system..go figure) and once the financial aid stuff is all taken care of I will just be waiting to start on Aug 24th Wooohoooo! I can't wait! Terry will also be heading back to school in the Fall...so that should be fun....it'll be like high school...he'll do my biology and I do his Math ,English and physiology lol just joking!

This kids are out of school in just 16 days....I can't wait!! Cat is so excited about second grade, we just bought her new messenger bag for school next year ( I am having it made and it should be here soon....she is so excited). Nate is loving school and has come so far in such a short amount of time...it is still up in the air if he will be going into 1st or doing one more year of Kindergarten just to make sure he is mature enough. But either way he can't wait until next school year. Anthony is doing awesome in speech class and will be starting Kindergarten in the Fall as well ( although I think he might be our biggest handful yet...he is quite stubborn...and only will do something when he is good and ready to do it....he also loves to pull pranks on people so I think we may be getting lots of color cards in his folder ( color cards are how they discipline children at the school) lol. AS for Nicolas I am sure he is going to love having mommy all to himself for the next 2 years. I think we might end up putting him in speech class as well.....he seems to be following in his big brothers footsteps and doesn't seem to like to us "c" "g" or "d" and "s's" while speaking.

We bought camping gear a few weeks back and are so excited about our planned camping trip at a near by naval station this summer. We have attempted several back yard camping adventures but the wind has had other plans for us ( maybe we will get the chance soon).

Okay well Nate is sick and asleep and Nick and Anthony are fighting so I better go!

Love you all.......esp. you Grandpa I knew you
would be just fine!!!